The title says it all. Unfortunately.
As someone who never really thinks about what I eat (besides whether or not it’s delicious, that is) or worries about my weight or body, I’m feeling pretty uncomfortable in my own skin right now.
It’s easy to say you don’t care about your fat when you don’t have to…when you know that despite many imperfections you basically look fine. It’s a lot harder when you legitimately have weight to lose. I know I’m only three months post birthing a nine pound human but. I feel itchy and alien in my own skin.
I’m cringing from photos of myself right now. I have a 10-15 pound fat layer hanging around. I’m sure it’s here for a while…I still can’t regularly run. I think my body is hanging onto it for nursing too.
Can’t wait to feel like myself again.
Last February, the month I got pregnant:
In good news, I had the best week of working out since the baby, due to my husband being off for the holidays. I went to three Spin classes, a strength class (I was able to keep up! yay!) and a few weights sessions at the gym. I also did my longest run since June…a three miler in the trails. After my long, slow run (ha) I had incredibly sore calves of all things. But everything else felt kind of okay. I’m thinking I might try to run a bit more regularly, and see what happens. I’m thinking I can’t fully heal if I don’t fully challenge myself.
Here’s to getting back to me in 2013. Or better.